my gf is the best gf in e world.
wonder what i did to deserve all these ppl ard me.
why cant i just treat him like how i treat my gf.
then all these wouldnt have happened.
fk myself. i need to learn how to treat my bf better =(


every time im gg thru all this shitty break up periods, she will try to b there for me whenever she can.
even if she's broke, she still offered to go for mani sessions w me...drag me to go threading session.
and tdy, arranging a cycling session for me along w her friend.
T.T without her, i doubt i can get past thru any break up.


i must thank him too.
now that i knw he wun b there for me anymore, ive gt this juz cycle n die attitude.
since my heart is dead. additional pain like this wouldnt matter right?
i juz wan to inflict more n more harm on myself to get rid of the heartache.
and it worked.
managed to cycle for a short distance! thou its still super unstable.
if ever there's a chance, i like to cycle along side w him too...
cycle & fly kites.
if only i still have a chance to do all these w him.