2 years ago. I had the anniversary trip w him.
2 yrs later. im back to the same place. same month. same dates.

went for a 3D2N trip with colleagues.
this is our 2nd dept trip to msia tgd.
drove up to KL & Genting.
the whole trip was kinda packed & rushed, getting the feeling that i might fall sick soon.

got an offer to tour europe from our colleague.
He will be providing lodging and meals.
All we have to do is to pay for air tickets.
Sounds like a really good offer.
At that instant, my mind was hoping that i can have a holiday with him.
But its like a wish that will never come true.

真正愛你的女孩，無論你是傻的笨的，也覺得你很酷

真正愛你的女孩，不會叫你名字，她會叫你「喂」、「死人」
真正愛你的女孩，總是要你猜她的心，猜錯還罵你

真正愛你的女孩，時常裝作漠不關心，後來卻溫柔的問你沒事嗎？

真正愛你的女孩，心甘情願，連夜織一條圍巾或幸運帶給你

真正愛你的女孩，在朋友面前常問你近況，卻否認自己喜歡你

真正愛你的女孩，因為掛念你，晚上總是睡不著覺

真正愛你的女孩，在你面前毫不在意，其實非常想知道你的心意

真正愛你的女孩，只要你說「我想妳」，她會甜甜笑，對你說「笨蛋！你說什麼啊？」

真正愛你的女孩，雖然相隔兩地，她會想著你們的未來而傻笑起來

真正愛你的女孩，讓你跟朋友出去玩，但是更希望你陪她過生日

真正愛你的女孩，你傷她心，睡覺前會想著你，流下幾滴眼淚

真正愛你的女孩，想告訴你她的心意，但是卻害怕失去你

sometimes i thought im over you.
yet sometimes it doesnt seem that way.
love fades, but memories stay.
and i guess ure here to stay forever in a lil corner of my heart.

Month of May.
feeling exceptionally emotional again.
pardon me and allow me to feel that way :(
it's just, memories came flooding back.
the fun times we had in genting.
and this time, i might be going genting again!
last yr this time we went to genting for our 1st anni trip.
this yr, i might be going again. and its around e same date too.
fated? hahahah idk.

Ive learnt.
that i needa create new memories.
memories w you, i will keep them safely w me.
but i must have new happy memories too (:
My story with you,  Its just the end of that particular chapter.
Now, i will move on to the next chapters w all my friends.

i want to be a part of your life.
to know what ure feeling.
to be a reason for your happiness and to share your frustrations.


dreams > reality.
for you holding my hands so tightly in my dreams is sth i can nv have in rl again.
my dreams, its the only place wher i can escape and still have a tinge of happiness. ('=

whenever i think of you, all the misses i have, it still hurts badly.
in e eyes of others, we were the happiest sticky couple.
they asked me not to think of it as my fault.
are we really incompatible?
只想要你知道，我是真得爱过你。
even if the memories are fading away, my feelings aint gonna go away.
the card  u made while u went sailing? 
it is a simple card, yet filled with all your heartfelt words.
and that is the most precious gift which i treasured the most.

on a happier note, my kitty buddy is engaged!
and we're of the same ageeeeeeeeeee!
where is my future bbydear?
will u please come along soon ?

and this time, it isnt e katespade girl.
this time, its a girl whom ive seen before while still w bj.
back then, she recognizes me actually.
was waiting outside for bj n his friends to come out fr e toilet when i feel that there's a girl looking at me.
turns out she's bj friend.
to be even more exact, she's someone that bj tried to woo before.
when i knew abt it last time, i wasnt jealous.
guess i was too happily in love, and i feel safe since he's willing to tell me e truth.

now that i knw abt it again, im feeling down. rli rli down.
there isnt jealousy, there isnt hatred.
prolly because ive met her b4.
and the impression of her was good.
like she's rli friendly and chatty.

y u so 花花公子！
im constantly preparing myself for your status change on fb.
but everytime im afraid.
give me e strength to face e reality.

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Spending my CNY in SG again (:
For me, this is only like the 2nd or 3rd time that i get to stay in sg.
The rest of CNY were back in kuantan coz dad is a msian.
Not that i hate gg back, but it gets really boring. plus its tiring.
the long car rides are torturous :(


wonder how is his winnings this yr? did he win BIGGG BIGGG?
okayy i knw! im not supposed to bother & care anymore.
skip skip then.

feeling rather old recently... and nx yr will b my yr!
2 full cycles. goshh. anymore older and i wld be single all e way liaoooo =((

didnt do much visiting.
up till date, i received 14 angbaos! (=
isit considered lil? :X
but it doesnt rli matter, coz im oldddddddd!
e excitement of receiving ang baos died dwn since i was 20. why so sadd hurhur.

took hell lotsa camwhoring shots thou.
like 70+ ? hahah
super love my front cameras ;P
pics for 初一 first!


wearing e guess tank top that gf got for me fr US !


first ang bao fr mummy (:


part of e dishes on chu er.
forgot to take the steamboat ingredients on chu xi.
but it was sumptuous! bet everyone had a sumptuous one too
lets all get fatfat tgd !


loll xinxin (kitty) is my favouritest baby.
thats why she gets to appear in all e pics hehh




2nd anbao fr dad.
needless to say. his is forever the biggest!
and look! its maplestory redpacket
seriously??!
wher did he get that fr HAHAHA






xinxin loves red packet too.
3rd angbao fr lixia ahyi.


out to bai nian w my nerdy specs yo (:







waiting to collect angbao fr ah yi nx yr!
FINALLYY wahaha



nope there's no fat tummy!
i blame it on my standing posture hokayy!?
*self denial in progress*

sucha gluttonnnnnn.
ive gt like 3 ultra big ulcers b4 CNY yet i still eat non stop. *guilty*
MEHH. so only myself to blame for fat fat fat =((((



almost forgot abt this. our yrly mj on every first of cny.
my first BIG win in mj.
got pretty gd luck in mj this yr (:
i got all my wins with 自摸! heng heng much!
andd its 5 台!


HOPE ITS E SAME FOR U TOO.
WIN MORE $$ AT ALL MJ THIS YR, MR SNAKE.

all e worries and misses.
you appeared in every dream.

3rd Jan 2012
Day Out At Marina Barrage w Uni peeps.
Potluck Bday Celebration For Bday Girl.
Had tonnes of Fun (;
Not that im v active.
But it was juz fun sitting quietly aside seeing my friends being all so hyper hahaha









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4th Jan
shoes shopping day w gf at far east plaza tdy.
and and and! i was only looking out for that pair that captured my heart at bugis loll
came too late when i went bugis shopping e other day.
sales girl told me: morning still have size 38.
*qing tian pi li* emooooo lo.
so..........imagine how high i was when i saw the pair of heels i wanted at FEP tdy (;
lookie at it!
isnt it pretty ^^ omg im still super happy now heheh

2012. Finally, Its a brand new yr!
2011 was both a mixture of bitter sweet.
1st half was definitely sweet. W genting trips, V day w him and all.
But the worst nightmare came when it entered e 2nd half of e yr.
June 14th. 6 more days but,
we didnt even made it to the 13th mthsary =(

Anw, my time was spent at home doing painting, cleaning up all welcoming 2012.
Nth much. Not a v exciting countdown but oh well.
Nth interests me if he weren't around.

Only thg that im looking forward to now wld be the new furnitures to arrive (:
All i want for Chirstmas is you.
All i want in 2012 is still you.

22nd - 24th dec 2011
the reason why i forsake the australia trip was, him.
didnt wan to be away in a faraway country on christmas day w/o him.
like what i fear, him flirting ard,
sooner or ltr there is bound to be an enemy popping out =(
true enough, she appeared! =((
somehow my feelings retreated back when i knew he has a gf.
which is supposedly good, isnt it?
but i ignored. made my way to find him instead.
i wanted to pretend and be oblivious to his surroundings.

was there on thurs. spent 2 nights at his place.
both days training n training maple x.x
boy went to work early on fri morning. at 6am+
was in total sleep mode.
and he didnt chase me home, so i ended up slping till 930.
when i woke up, his daddy juz returned fr work and even bought me breakfast.
*feels so loved*
but it was really weird.
this was e first time im at b's place w only his parents at home.
i knew it was only half day work for him.
so i didnt wan to go home juz yet.
but i wasnt sure. wasnt sure if he would b back home straight fr work.
or would he go... elsewhere?
while eating breakfast, i texted him.
i knew there was like 90% chance he wouldnt reply.
like he alw does best ; ignoring my smses. *bah*

texted him if i could continue slping or shld i help him train his maple?
and "ding ding" the reply came back so fast i was literally shocked!
while training, b's mummy told me she's abt to go out.
naturally it would b super weird if i continued staying at his place w only his dad at home.
time was near 3 and he wasnt home yet!
mood meter went down immediately after knwing i cant spend another day w him.
he didnt tell me he would be home at what time and prolly thought i would b okay at hm since his mummy is ard.
afterall its friday, christmas season and HALFDAY work.
if it was me, i would def wan to spend time out w my other half ya?

but persistence paid off.
shamelessly staying put at his place when im not of gf status.
since thgs are alr at this state, i cant care much abt what ppl might thk alr.
b's mummy is being super nice.
cooked dinner, cooked lunch and dug out pressies for me loll.
b had 2 dinner on thurs night.
he ate up e whole packet of chicken rice leaving me hungry.
pestered him to cook maggie for me,
ended up his mum took over and cooked porridge w veggie w luncheon meat and fried eggs!
ALOT OF FOOOOOD.
and me being the super small eater, i transferred my share of rice porridge over to his plate instead.
fat babyy to e rescue.
loll at his face when i saw that he had to eat 2 meals for that night.
who asked him not to share his packet of chicken rice w me! *pfft*

there's alot i wanna write down in this blog.
but i guess even without writing down, i would still rmb all e times w him.
when i was beside him, he cheekily went ard flirting w his xlp in maple.
thkng it would affect me.
asking his xlp if she missed him!but it didnt affect me.
hahah the one who shld be worried is his gf instead.

watched movies after movies.
and there's jurassic park which he forced me to watch because he knew i didnt watched it b4.
say i no childhood -_-

i ps-ed alot of friends.
not joining for xmas party, not picking up calls.
felt rli bad.
even if im down w no more friends, i wun regret because this is what i wanted.

last yr dec was the best mth of the yr.
we made a pact not to quarrel.
This time last yr, SDD was out w me shopping at paragon.
Buying my very first gucci item. (wallet)
and we had B&J's ice cream.
walking ard orchard area. everything was perfect.
dec is supposed to be a month of love and joy.
but without you, my world is grey.


went to ikea tdy.
the last i went was w SDD.
shopping for his com table.
i have memories of us everywhere hidden deep inside.

miss you bby.

they say time heals everythg.
why didnt time heal mine?



i wan a hug.
i wan to cuddle up and spend every moment w you during your off days.
im jealous of everyone who gets to be around you.
i really dont want this to happen ;((
can this be a nightmare instead and let me wake up from this soon?

Forever Skinny de Jia Ying! (:



Early Christmas Mass Phototaking Shots w gf at Vivo!





loving my new top :)